What I'm Listening To: HILLSONG UNITED - OCEANS
Currently Feeling: BLESSED
I have been seeking and looking for something for the past six years. There are times I would question myself what have I been doing with my life and always thought that it's enough and made myself believe that I'm happy.
Alam mo yung feeling na parang OK naman lahat pero meron parin kulang... meron parin tanong na hindi masagot. I always said that when, everything is on its place and ok na lahat, malalaman mo kung ano talaga yung kulang.
I always believed na ang kulang talaga sakin is lovelife and that always made me sad, insecure and miserable kasi feeling ko my career and life is ok naman pero single parin ako. I often compared myself to others who are already starting their own family and those na may anak na... and ako wala pa which always made me feel alone.
But now, I realized na mayron pa palang akong pwedeng gawin aside from looking and looking for someone who will love me and spend the rest of my life with and start a family with. Hindi ko lang siya pinapansin... Nandito lang pala si JESUS pero ako ang umiiwas.
This summer, I have sinned and sinned but I met people who lead me to finally walk what I have been seeking for. I will always thank Ate Czari and Sis Irene for this. Irene has been inviting me pero ako ang umiiwas. She even went with me sa 1st Church ko. Ate Czari naman convinced me na pwede naman akong makinig lang and see what it will make me feel. Walang pilitan. I am free to walk away the same person I am kung hindi ko magustuhan.
Ilang taon akong umiwas because of my fears. Ang daming dahilan and takot but when I finally went to CCF and attended a service... Nawala lahat ng takot ko. The Holy Spirit really guided me through. And then, all the blank spaces was filled in when I welcomed JESUS in my heart. It's FULL now.
This is a start of a new journey for me and please pray for me as I begin this path closer to God.
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Don't forget, JESUS LOVES YOU.
Love, now and always with God,